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Mar 30, 2023Liked by Dark Wittgenstein

Now how did you write for my current state of being with the same examples, phrases, and psychoanalytic lens that I've been reading about? Crazy. Good stuff, quite piercing. Adler calls it a fictive goal and says it corresponds to feelings of inferiority.

Napoleon himself said: “Besides, as far as I am concerned, I have no ambition—or, if I have any, it is so natural to me, so innate, so intimately linked with my existence that it is like the blood that circulates in my veins, like the air I breathe. It causes me to act neither more precipitately, nor in any way differently, than do the natural motives that move me. I never am obliged to fight either for or against ambition. Ambition never is in a greater hurry than I; it merely keeps pace with circumstances and with my general way of thinking.” Lines up.

I'm currently unable to establish a mental distinction between achieving narcissistic fantasies and doing literally anything at all. I suspect it's some kind of dopamine dysregulation. The question of how you can tell if you're being realistic is vexing because perception of possibility and expected reward entirely depends on dopaminergic availability. Sometimes complex goals seem a few weeks of effort away; sometimes the simplest obligations are insurmountable. I never quite know where along this continuum my judgment is operating from. I think it would be strategically advantageous to always be a little too overconfident in this assessment, but 🤷

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Yes I've really been thinking about this because I've been trying to make the same mental distinction. My instinct is that overconfidence is better because it's just generally better to do something than not do something. Also great quote

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